How did you get into my mind and my heart? I thought all my deep, dark secrets were well hidden. I thought I was the worse “failure” in the history of Christian women. I thought I was alone, without help and without hope.
What a weight has been lifted from my shoulders knowing that I’m not alone in my struggles. In addition there are the other women in this study who have bared there souls with us. You have all made me feel hope again. I now know that, despite my imperfections, I can make “imperfect progress”. I know that, if I will make time to just quiet my anxious soul, God will speak His peace to me. Things will get better.
I have to tell you that each chapter in this Bible Study has ministered to me. Even the things that didn’t apply to me individually applied to people I deal with on a frequent basis. So, I have learned what makes them tick a little better, so that I can breath instead of reacting. Maybe I can even let God use me to help. Maybe I can let Him speak grace through my lips.
I’m not doing this perfectly, but I’m seeing it and I’m trying. Isn’t that what this is about? We are learning and we are trying. We are taking baby steps forward toward “imperfect progress” Like all babes learning to walk we fall down sometimes. Yes, I’m still falling short, but I’m not quitting. I’m not throwing my arms up in the air and crying out, “What’s the use?”. I am going to follow the path Christ has laid out before me. However, some changes need to be made for that to happen and you have shown me many ways to make improvements.
Sabbath. That simple, old-fashion word speaks volumes . Sabbath, the place were I will find rest for my soul. Sabbath, the place of peace. Sabbath, the place where I can come into the presence of my Father. Yes, I do like even the sound of the very word, Sabbath. Thank you for re-introducing us to this new, old word. I find rest, real rest, hard to come by. Quieting myself takes a lot of effort.
Lysa, when you talked about us parking our minds on idle perception instead of truth, something when off in my mind. I started thinking about that word perception. A perception is an idea, a notion, an apprehension, an image in the mind. It is not TRUTH. Perception is a “thing” in my human intellect which does not know how to connect to God. My spirit does! I have to get my spirit tuned to God’s Spirit. I need to live by the spirit more than by my flesh (my mind, will, and emotions).
Jesus said in John 4:23 that “true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth, for the Father is seeking such people to worship Him. Maybe, if I would get over to that place of true worship; maybe if I just give God some time and some love, so that He can love on me like He desires, then I would finely find that true peace for my troubled soul. Then that Truth will have reign in my heart instead of those idols-yes, idols. An idol is anything that takes the place of God. When I replace His Truth with my perceptions and my idle words is that not what I’m doing? Am I not setting up idols in my mind? Idols of my own making! This thought has brought me up short. This takes it to another level. Paul said in 2 Corinthians 10:5, [Inasmuch as we] refute arguments and theories and reasonings and every proud and lofty thing that sets itself up against the [true] knowledge of God; and we lead every thought and purpose away captive into the obedience of Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One)..(Amplified Bible).
I’m going to tear my idols down! I’m going to allow God to show me those dark places in my heart and mind. I’m praying that the Light of the Glorious Gospel will dispel ever dark ungodly imagination of my mind. I will allow Him to expose those “tender” places where I’ve placed a Do Not Enter sign. I’m placing a new sign up that says “God Welcome”.
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. In him was life, and the life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it. (John 1:1,4-5 ESV)
Oh, God, shine Your light into my heart and into my mind. As You have said through David, Your psalmist, “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.” (Psalm 51:10 ESV) I’m believing You, Lord, for revival to begin in me. I’m trusting in You, in Your goodness and Your faithfulness.
My heart cries out – “YES”!